b4 i die i want turquoise/purple/pink/blonde EVERY COLOR IN THE WORLD HIGHLIGHTS HAHHAHAHAH I CN BE THE GAY PRIDE FLAG. miss you miss you just wna kiss you. HAHAHAAA. im nt in a happy mood but everytime i start writing in LJ i just get hit by this bolt of happiness ya i am sho kewlz.

-serious mood-

why am i so ugly ah hahaha. ok nvm...... cannot say tht im v horrendous or hideous but ya im quite ugly. i dont have the perfect anyth like all those girls on tumblr. even sme girls on the street they look like potential models pl0x thn i look at my own reflection and my heart sinks. why are sme ppl so beautiful? i guess some of them rly put time and effort to look THAT gorgeous but sme ppl just have gorgeous in thr blood. its just nt fair you know. lifes not fair. if you cnt make me prettier at least make everyone else uglier or ard the same standard.

THEN ANOTHER THING IS -- CONSEQUENCES.

why must thr be a consequence for everyth lol.. cnt u just let me live my aimless life in peace. its perfectly aimless hahahhahahhaaa. sometimes whn i do things i dont exactly care bout the consequences cause they look v minimal but ya in the end everyth just becomes big. life-threatening. HAHAA maybe nt life-threatening but u get my point la. like v serious......... had i known we'd be like this i rly wouldnt hv gotten my friends to confess to u lol. talking to x ystd got me thinking. even if i like you and you like me and we tell eachother, whts gna hpn nxt? WHTS GNA FUCKING HPN NXT? NOTHING. Its just like tht.... thn aft a point in time everyth just gets rly messy and rly jumbled up till it gets awkward. why? cause we confessed our feelings. ya. if i hadnt said i wouldnt hv to knw hw u felt i wouldnt hv to be so fucking confused on whether i should do this or whether i should do tht. thr wouldnt be a fucking wall called ''AWKWARD'' in between us. the wall is so strong and no matter hw many times i try no matter hw hard i try its still as strong as ever. but thn agn if i nv confess or anyth i will have this burden in me waiting to be lifted up.

i rly wish i could be carefree. im only wht, 13? no nt even 13 lol 12 ah. 1 more month. yaaa so young right i shouldnt even care about the stuff tht haunt me everyday lol. at this age those stuff should be the last thing on my mind but nooooooooooooooo. everyone grows up too fast and society fucked everyone up. noone gets anyth. why cnt everyone just act thr age. oh god i sound like a hypocrite nw dont i hahhahaha. my life is so fucking aimless and i dont get exactly wht am i waiting for. u dont do anyth = u get nowhr. somehow it doesnt scare me whn it rly should. everyday wht do i do? wake up, brush teeth, watch tv+tumblr, eat, go out. ya like tht only. not like thrs anyth productive bout being a couch potato. even whn i think 'oh im doing something decent w my life for once' ha ha ha ha ha ah ah aha ha ha ha ha fucking joke.

last one? hehe i h8 fake friends.

u wnt to be my friend you fucking act like one. being nice to ppls face thn badmouthing them once they turn thr back on u? u call tht a friend? right okay you are fucked up in the head.



this is life, you only have one life. make the best of it or just waste 80 yrs doing completely nothing. i get mad at myself but i dont ever do anyth bout it so ya wish me luck HAHAHAHHAH.