b4 i die i want turquoise/purple/pink/blonde EVERY COLOR IN THE WORLD HIGHLIGHTS HAHHAHAHAH I CN BE THE GAY PRIDE FLAG. miss you miss you just wna kiss you. HAHAHAAA. im nt in a happy mood but everytime i start writing in LJ i just get hit by this bolt of happiness ya i am sho kewlz.

-serious mood-

why am i so ugly ah hahaha. ok nvm...... cannot say tht im v horrendous or hideous but ya im quite ugly. i dont have the perfect anyth like all those girls on tumblr. even sme girls on the street they look like potential models pl0x thn i look at my own reflection and my heart sinks. why are sme ppl so beautiful? i guess some of them rly put time and effort to look THAT gorgeous but sme ppl just have gorgeous in thr blood. its just nt fair you know. lifes not fair. if you cnt make me prettier at least make everyone else uglier or ard the same standard.

THEN ANOTHER THING IS -- CONSEQUENCES.

why must thr be a consequence for everyth lol.. cnt u just let me live my aimless life in peace. its perfectly aimless hahahhahahhaaa. sometimes whn i do things i dont exactly care bout the consequences cause they look v minimal but ya in the end everyth just becomes big. life-threatening. HAHAA maybe nt life-threatening but u get my point la. like v serious......... had i known we'd be like this i rly wouldnt hv gotten my friends to confess to u lol. talking to x ystd got me thinking. even if i like you and you like me and we tell eachother, whts gna hpn nxt? WHTS GNA FUCKING HPN NXT? NOTHING. Its just like tht.... thn aft a point in time everyth just gets rly messy and rly jumbled up till it gets awkward. why? cause we confessed our feelings. ya. if i hadnt said i wouldnt hv to knw hw u felt i wouldnt hv to be so fucking confused on whether i should do this or whether i should do tht. thr wouldnt be a fucking wall called ''AWKWARD'' in between us. the wall is so strong and no matter hw many times i try no matter hw hard i try its still as strong as ever. but thn agn if i nv confess or anyth i will have this burden in me waiting to be lifted up.

i rly wish i could be carefree. im only wht, 13? no nt even 13 lol 12 ah. 1 more month. yaaa so young right i shouldnt even care about the stuff tht haunt me everyday lol. at this age those stuff should be the last thing on my mind but nooooooooooooooo. everyone grows up too fast and society fucked everyone up. noone gets anyth. why cnt everyone just act thr age. oh god i sound like a hypocrite nw dont i hahhahaha. my life is so fucking aimless and i dont get exactly wht am i waiting for. u dont do anyth = u get nowhr. somehow it doesnt scare me whn it rly should. everyday wht do i do? wake up, brush teeth, watch tv+tumblr, eat, go out. ya like tht only. not like thrs anyth productive bout being a couch potato. even whn i think 'oh im doing something decent w my life for once' ha ha ha ha ha ah ah aha ha ha ha ha fucking joke.

last one? hehe i h8 fake friends.

u wnt to be my friend you fucking act like one. being nice to ppls face thn badmouthing them once they turn thr back on u? u call tht a friend? right okay you are fucked up in the head.



this is life, you only have one life. make the best of it or just waste 80 yrs doing completely nothing. i get mad at myself but i dont ever do anyth bout it so ya wish me luck HAHAHAHHAH.

i think im completely afraid to fall for anyone alr hahhahaha. i saw this on tumblr ->

''Have you ever been in love?

Yeah. I’ve had a million little dalliances into the big, scary world of dating, but the only guy who ever had my heart was my best friend. My personal recommendation on this issue: DON’T DO IT!''

I cn just go marry tht girl cause i totally feel the same way hahaa its like if the person is impt to you thn dont fall in love w him/her but for me its hard to resist cause im a person tht succumbs to temptation and im also v impulsive. and i rather fall in love w someone who im close to cause if it actally works out u nv knw wht hpns but if it doesnt work out thn yaaaaa learn yr lesson lor.

love is about taking risks right but risks are scary and thrs sooo many consequences tht u'll have to bear in the end. dont get why thr must hv a feeling called 'love'. the world will be cruel and vicious and violent and all tht without love but thr will also be a lot of unnecessary shedding of tears.

POINT IS -- DONT FUCKING FALL IN LOVE YA. YOU WILL JUST GET YR HEART BROKEN INTO TWO AND NO SURGERY CN FIX THT ^__^

HI I HAVENT BLOGGED FOR 10928309128309127392193812 YEARS SO IM GNA TOUCH IT NOW. *clears cobwebs. HAHAHAH.

I am in no right mood to blog though hahha cn i rant? I will upload photos thn rant. Should i upload from 3 months ago the photo or just recent ones. Hmmmmmm. Come let us rewind 3 months ago....... Ok, so.

1. YOG ended :'(
2. I fell in love and i screwed it up pretttty badly hahhahahaaha.
3. I got 2 new cam.
4. I cut my hair.
5. OK LA THIS IS SO STUPID HAHAHAHAH.

I nv update my blog for so long i think all my readers fly off alrdy. And noone exactly blogs anymore. Its all tumblr, twitter, facebook.


im too lazy to update so bye

You left me wanting more, you left me wanting you.










When I like a person, I actually like them. It’s not one of those three day crush type things. It is hardcore, can’t get my mind off them, thing. & that’s why I haven’t liked all that many people. But I eventually get over them when I find someone new. But with him, no matter who I find, I can’t erase him. He’s going to be the one I’ll always like.

I think ppl that choose boyf over friends are stupid. Boyf break w u who do u go back to??? Friends la, duh. But ur two not even tgt. Pffffffffft. Hahahaahhaha everything is fine. Not. I'm so happy. Not. So tired now. Stupid YOG, turned out to be fun. I expected CLEAN water and all. End up we ran in dirty warm/hot water. Not cool. My whole body feels sore. Aching. Someone give me a massage la. Don't know how to react on my own by myself how could u say goodbye Hahahaah there ain't nothing left to say u just walked away literally. Yeah ok u know what fuck u. You didn't do anything but fuck u ok. :( I don't even understand what im typing. Ohwellz. :) Thought it could be u when u think of it every piece of it I hate it, whenever im using my acc in blogger, cant change color/font/size. Sign in w other ppl acc then can. WHAT IS THIS MAN. I'm not happy i'm not sad i'm not angry now. Cool?? No. My face is stuck like -> -_- bcoz im too tired to put on a smile. Goodnight, rest early loves.

I had a total meltdown today and I feel like no one was there for me. Especially you. I was obviously upset and crying and you didn’t even look at me or ask me if I was okay. You’re so heartless and nonobservant and stupid and I hate that you don’t give a fuck about anything or anyone besides yourself. Yet, I still like you through all your flaws.

You’re already hurting me and yet you have no idea. How i wish i could break down infront of you, but i can’t . I can’t make you feel guilty. How i wish i could tell you how i truly feel , but i can’t. I can’t make you sad, i can’t break your heart. Breaking yours means mine breaking too. I can’t hurt us all. I guess all i could do is stay in this pain alone.

Gonna go back primary school cause they're having a carnival? Yeah, carnival. I think. But going Tiong soonzzz to makan w bestfriend then vivo for some window shopping first. :-) Ok cya.

Its been 10 days since i actually blogged, probably the longest time i'm away from blogger. :-) Im tired, physically and mentically. It started out with a kiss. How did it end up like this. Spent 900+ within this month, month hasn't even ended yet. Low on cash at the moment. Fucking ez-link card cost me another $31. Keep shopping. Eveywhr i go must buy at least 1 piece if not i dun feel satisfied. Been eating out for practically every meal too. Cleaned up my closet last night. Realized how many things i've nv worn and yet i dunwan them anym. Gave most to Sheryl, gna donate the rest since im tooooo lazy to update blogshop.



You ask me why I like you, and it’s really something I can’t put into words. Maybe it’s because you make me happy all the time. Maybe it’s because you know how to keep a conversation with me. Maybe it’s because you got me thinking about you before I go to sleep and after I wake up. Maybe it’s because I can be myself around you. Maybe it’s because you bring the best out of me. Maybe it’s because I can spend hours on the phone with you talking about the stupidest things. Maybe it’s because I can never get enough of you. Maybe it’s just because you’re just being yourself, and I’m slowly falling for you.

U knw, day after day i still ask myself why u left me. Sadly i dun have the answers. Maybe if i wasn't me, you'd like me more. Yeah that must be it. HA HA HA. I like talking to myself, how sad.

YOG tdy, didn't go agn. Can't bring myself to go and anywz mummy told me i wouldn't hv to go. :-) Yipee yipee yeah yeah. Hahahahah.

I hate it when like you use to talk to someone loads and really get on, really close whatever, then like for some reason or another you guys stop talking and just grow apart then when months later you try talking to that person and it just doesn’t work. The conversation just dies and you can’t really talk anymore much, and you don’t have the friendship you once had. Only the memories.

Story of my fucking life, i hate this to the fucking max. -'- I wna tell 'em so badly but i won't, i can't. Imagine someone u used to be close to but nt anym, they tell u they miss u and all this. Maybe some of u will admit it too. But i knw they wont care, they wont say anyth, they wont even care, they hv other things to deal with, they dun need me anym, they broke their promises. It hurts to be replaced ~ It hurts. A lot.

Long enough? Heck yeah.